I’m a butterfly…

komen ne, it was quite some time I’ve updated here.

Work was lusting over my time and a lot of events had been hovering my life.

Also went travelling around. Refreshing!

Well, in case you are wondering what happened between R & me….

All I can say is, we never step into a r/s, and we will not too.

Then again, he got me stupefying…  he’s a friend I don’t want to lose.

Right now, I don’t think I can commit into a r/s: the sense freedom must not be underestimated.

I guess I must have been a butterfly in my past life.

Will update more often. This I promise.

Keep me in your thoughts.

Cheers…

potential

Finally I get to club in Singapore once again.

The familiar beat. The strong bass that beats with my heart.

but seriously, clubbing in Singapore is getting really boring. It’s too small here. but there’s nothing much to do neither. shrug

Hugged my girlfriends, it’s been a month since I saw them. My my, they are getting sexier everyday.

And delicious.

In the midst of our booze and laughter, we were interrupted by a group of men who knew my friend Z. Apparently they just arrived and we decided to let them join our table.

There was a particular guy that caught my eye: that look in his eyes..full of confidence, and I must admit, he’s not bad looking. We were introduced and happened that he’s an american born korean and just came to Singapore not long ago. Let’s name him.. R.

We started to talk and had to sit very close ‘cuz the surroundings were too loud to talk normally. I felt a sense of warmth when our bodies touched. I knew I was attracted to him, so he was. Somehow my friends disappeared to the dance floor and we continued to talk.

It wasn’t long enough that I got a little high from the glasses of white wine. Just as I placed back my glass on the table and was about to continue our conversation, he pulled me towards him and planted a kiss on my lips. It was a shock but I didn’t resist. In the midst of the loud music, that sensation went through my spine. It was a nice kiss.

Blood flushed to my face after we broke away from the kiss. It must be the wine. Or was it a long time since I was really attracted to someone? at this point, the rest came back and decided to change another venue I decided not to go as I had enough drinks for the night and he offered to send me home as he was living in the nearby vicinty.

As he accompanied to my doorstep, I thanked him and we exchanged numbers. Before he left, we had a hug and kiss again.

A sms came a minute later.

“Love to know you more. Shall we go for a date one day?”

I smiled to myself.

interesting

thanks for every email you sent & adding me on ur msn..i’m flattered with the interest you all have in me..

Was away for business trip for 2 weeks. That’s why I haven’t been writing. I must say, the men there are really interesting, and really manly. They really look good in suits..umm it’s really .. tempting. But I have to keep reminding myself – I’m working.. well of course, who says you can’t have FUN during work… but oh well, I don’t wanna come across tarty or slutty too much. It’s best behind doors… you know..

I think Singapore weather is really terrible: it’s too hot to wear anything too formal here. If only the men here wear suits. ummm…

And it helps if the jacket has a good cut and bring out a man’s build. But of course, that man must have a good built as well.

I did enjoy my nights there. Dining, clubbing, and a lot of eye candies, both males & females. And best of all, no one knew who are you (Singapore is really small. I hate it. It’s too small for comfort). Got to know a few acquantiances… and damn, they are really dashing. Those kisses were sweet and it lingers on my lips.

Perhaps it’s me, but again, it’s not electrifying enough to get me to the bed.                                                                   I love to play hard to get. It takes a lot of effort to get me, I must say.

And oh yes, did I mention I’m very much available..single.

Time for my washroom activity.. mmmm.. and partying this wkend…

*muacks*

Later.

It was a beautiful breezy night.

Somehow we met up that day. She wasn't in town.

I dazed deep in his eyes.. His eyes were so captivating.

I smiled. He loved my smile.

I gasped softly when he pulled me close to him.
That hug I longed for so long… mm..

Placed my head on his chest… hearing his heartbeat..

Felt we were beating as one.

And we landed up having numerous sex sessions that night.

It was magical.

the next day.. as I started on my work, I thought of everything in the past.

Why. Why did I have to fall in love with him?

Or it was just thrill?  The thought of possessing someone else's property excites me.

It's like.. it's mine, but yet not mine. but a point of time, it's mine.

oh well, who cares if he's just making use of me? It's ok. I have my fair share of fun too.

Let me just enjoy the ride of mollification. *muacks*

it came..

I felt soft strokes on my hair. flashing my smile, I looked at him fondly. He was lying next to me. 

we kissed. our tongues searched for each other and soft squeezes were pawing all over me.

so did i.

slowly, he was caressing my breasts under my top, which came off shortly after.

he unhooked that protection.. and he blew soft kisses on my breasts.

mmmm.. satisfying..

My hands reached for his clothes and pants. I felt his hardened manhood slowly and brought it to my lips.

Lickings… spiralling… sucking it.

I heard his gasp. I loved it. that husky gasp.

he moved me into the other direction and ripped my skirt & thongs off.

he licked my clit. sucked it. kissed it… it got me excited and I spiralled his manhood faster.

after wrestling with each other orally, he laid me down and he did missionary, sucking my left breasts and moving my clit at the same time..my hands moved around his back..squeezing him whenever i felt that sensation through me..

I digged into his back as I gasped at each thrust.

aaah..I came. he was good at making me come.

he didn't stop. he made me lying on my front kneeing down and fucked me from the back. the thrust rhythms with my moaning. I sashayed myself in a different direction and banged him when he thrusted me.

it's electrifying. I was in ecstasy. He grinned at me when our eyes met.

I came again. after that we went fast and hard… then he serenaded me slowly… and he sucked me hungrily… I gagged at his manhood…… I couldn't remember how many times I came that noon.

And finally we came together…

we smiled at each other. and kissed again.

It was the first time we fucked.

That smile behind the mask

Sometimes I wonder, does anyone know
the person that I really am to the world I never show.

So many thoughts well hidden, no one ever thinks to ask,
Who’s the real me behind this mask…

They hear my laughter, see a smile on my face,
My tears don’t show, when the smile is in place.

Can anyone see the hurt, the pain?
I hid it so well as peace I seek to gain..

Are there others like me, keeping one person inside?
While to the world, they display a false pride?

Why are we hiding, what are our fears?
Do we believe no one sees behind the smile are tears?

We feel so safe it seems, as our true self wears a mask.
But, being two people is not always an easy task.

I am tired.

I hate to admit it but…

I feel vulnerable, because I get touched very easily.

but I know it's just a game.

Sad to say, I do think of him every now and then.

Despite not knowing how he is.

Damn.

Gosh.

He reminded me of an ex: sensitive, caring, passionate and a little playful.

Maybe that's why I like him.

I love his hungry kisses.

I like his passionate touch.

I like that sneaky grab of my hands.

The untouchables in the public.

That tongues on my bosom.

That long fingers play at my pussy.

That mighty thrust in it. Oh, what a great…pleasure.mmm

I just can't get enough of him.

and not enough to satisfy my desire.

The exciting part is, we were at outdoors doing such lovely stuff.

Thrilling.

I wish he was here.

*licks*

Pleasure

Obviously I didn’t manage to find the couple I wanted.

As much as I’m open minded, I need to relate to the guy first. I must know a little of him.

Unless that guy is able to electrify me instantly.

So far there’s only one. He really knows how to please a female.. *blushes*

Not even him could electrify me instantly..

And I must not know the female at all.

Call it paranoid, but haha… I can’t imagine seeing a female I know personally naked in front of me.

‘cuz… I might just fantasize about them! It’s too awkward.

I miss him though.

After that eve, we did meet up for lunch. His working place is quite near me, so we could afford to see each other sometimes.

I thought we were over. We never started though, but it should be over. We were trying to be back as friends. I built a wall between us: we stop talking intimately.

Sometimes I asked him who I was to him.

He didn’t reply, or he’d change the topic.

Then this day, we met for lunch.

We didn’t see each other for about 2 weeks that time.

It was during the smoke break. He was telling me how bad his office environment was.

Then, a hand came over my shoulders.

At a split second, I didn’t know how to react. How could this happen? I thought he mentioned he couldn’t live a double life?

Netiher I remembered him mentioning any problems between him & her.

I decided, to sit closer to him. I moved.

I wanted to ask him why. But the words just couldn’t come out that time.

So I lit the 2nd cigarette and when I turned to look at his face, our eyes met.

We kissed.

It was a long kiss.

I was falling for him all over again.

3-some

It’ll be damn fun and interesting to see your man fucking another girl.

Wanna see do he groove her better than you?

and it’ll be interesting to get another female tasting you.

‘cuz the female will know where are the right grooves and spots…

Damn, I’m feeling horny right now in office and my G string is wet imagining all such.

I need some three-some.

Maybe I’ll look for a couple this weekend… grins…